-No-Enthusiasm-@-All-

What do u want?? What do u expect??
grrrrrrr
I need no man nor male in escort within my life
But for this time, i need a brand new job
And definitely the vacation to refresh all these bulks within

Then i'll set my life as free as an independent woman, indeed
Maybe cheered up with the adopted children
And have my master degree done, before the set
Ohh i want that kind of life

Ahhhhh, it's been so flat but no smooth at all,
It's been boring yet thrillin at the same time

But could u just stick with ur dream??
I'm struggling to attain those all
Goin' along with sacrifice
I can't lie that sumtimes i get a perplexing orientation

- In my relationship life -
Why, when he had no enthusiasm at all,
I acted like that's the problem for me
Broken and wrecked
Didn't i want to walk away from him?
Why, when i had a talk with him,
I flew onto the air so so high, soared up to the sky..
Happy overated
Didn't i want to clean up my heart-my mind-my life from him?

Sigh.. i get dissoriented sumtimes but fuck with that
Just stick with what i've been dreamin about

What soo what??
I know theres sumthin wrong inside myself
I do really know i have problem.....
Matter just does exist there
But i dont know, is that d'real problem?
Or where's d'real one??

Is it a test, God??
I shouldn't ask ....
So, how to do d'best while we walk through these all ??
That's it
Perhaps... i still dont get anything about this...
Yea, maybe not now, later indeed....


And after all.... why am I asking a lot eventually???

Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggghh i hate this circumstance