-No-Enthusiasm-@-All-

What do u want?? What do u expect??
grrrrrrr
I need no man nor male in escort within my life
But for this time, i need a brand new job
And definitely the vacation to refresh all these bulks within

Then i'll set my life as free as an independent woman, indeed
Maybe cheered up with the adopted children
And have my master degree done, before the set
Ohh i want that kind of life

Ahhhhh, it's been so flat but no smooth at all,
It's been boring yet thrillin at the same time

But could u just stick with ur dream??
I'm struggling to attain those all
Goin' along with sacrifice
I can't lie that sumtimes i get a perplexing orientation

- In my relationship life -
Why, when he had no enthusiasm at all,
I acted like that's the problem for me
Broken and wrecked
Didn't i want to walk away from him?
Why, when i had a talk with him,
I flew onto the air so so high, soared up to the sky..
Happy overated
Didn't i want to clean up my heart-my mind-my life from him?

Sigh.. i get dissoriented sumtimes but fuck with that
Just stick with what i've been dreamin about

What soo what??
I know theres sumthin wrong inside myself
I do really know i have problem.....
Matter just does exist there
But i dont know, is that d'real problem?
Or where's d'real one??

Is it a test, God??
I shouldn't ask ....
So, how to do d'best while we walk through these all ??
That's it
Perhaps... i still dont get anything about this...
Yea, maybe not now, later indeed....


And after all.... why am I asking a lot eventually???

Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggghh i hate this circumstance

and d' dream came true

i just scared with falling down,
although the hope was rising up...

"Don't be such a thing as over!"
they said, took it lightly

"There's a thing called 'brain-strength'!"
some other people said, whooped on me

"I keep on believing that i can achieve what i want,
just don't give up!" i spoke 2 myself, hundreds time

and w/ efforts and prays, that all came in 1 package,
eventually brought me 2 d'platform of
attaining my improbable dream

so thank you for everyone whom helped me on
believing and fulfilling my own dream
cant make it without you....
family n friends,
may God bless U all....

A Letter for You

D'things I wanna tell U, may b d'things U don't wanna hear...
But d'worst is that I don't really wanna tell U so,
D'things I wanna tell U, are d'things I can't say...
Bcoz when i do that, it may end up with Ur leaving,
Eventhough U've already done that 2 me

I wonder, why U left me behind without notice
Where's exactly d'part that decide U on keeping me away?
Have U forgotten the happiness of being separated in togetherness?
But perhaps U don't even really know,
how those all always brighten my day
Don't U know that I miss U?

I am starting hopeless, while it seems only Ur shadow left here,
and even i know it's just too much, still...
by now i'm praying for U not 2 leave...
But in d'end... i'll let U go if that's Ur decree,
Coz that's Ur life after all...
and in another way.. i need my life to be rearranged